Some months back, I asked the following question on my social networks:
“For those of you who, more often than not, feel lonely, what are the main causes for that same feeling?“
Needless to say I’m one of those people.
If I look back, really back, I feel I’ve always felt lonely throughout my life. I grew up under an overprotective household, where I couldn’t really go out and play, and the only real contact with friends were the very few I was fortunate enough to have come over (I’m such a walking and talking stereotype for a geek software engineer).
All this made me want to create stories, narratives, epic adventures of my own fantasy worlds, as they were my only escape from a very lonely existence. I could be whatever I wanted and do just that. I could be free from the shackles of my incarcerated upbringing.
Gosh, that was harsh…
Continue reading “On Solitude and Loneliness”
Hey, it’s me again!
It’s been a while. Almost a lifetime (yet another, *sigh*).
Since I last wrote here, so many thinks came to pass… World’s gone crazy with the Pandemic, people’s lives got set upside-down, we lost relatives, friends and a lot of things we hold most dear. We had to learn how to live again, how to work, and how to live through the ordeal of being away from those that we love.
As I write this text, everything seems to be calming down (crossing fingers here). Vaccines are being distributed, we have somewhat adapted to the hardship and are getting our lives back, one socially-distanced get-together after the other (now that’s a tough concept).
So what’s going on right now?
Continue reading “Crossroads”
Pain is surreal, pain makes us think about all the inconsistencies in life. Pain exists, lives and breathes through our own hopes and dreams.
This is not a pretty, uplifting, inspirational post. You have been warned.
Continue reading “Pain”
Have you ever seen the sun rising from behind the snow capped mountains surrounding the edges of Los Angeles?
I have. Multiple times. It’s not the most beautiful sunrise I ever saw, but for me it was always comforting.
Continue reading “On Saying Goodbye”
This is a very personal post. You have been warned.
Out at the train tracks
I dream of escape
But a song comes onto my iPod
And I realize it’s getting late
And I can’t take the staring
And the sympathy
And I don’t like the questions “How do you feel?”
“How’s it going in school?”
And “Do you wanna talk about it?”
Porcupine Tree – Way out of Here
We are an odd species, and surely I cannot put enough emphasis on that remark so that it really illustrates the feeling I am trying to convey.
Continue reading “On People and Feelings”
We all like to take a few things for granted.
If we consider Maslow’s hierarchy of needs, there are plenty of things we all love to take for granted, from things most of us we in the Western hemisphere usually have at our disposal, like a ceiling to sleep under, running drinkable water and food for the day, or even more complex endeavours like a good job or friends we can rely on.
So what happens when those constructs are put to test? How do we feel when we need to let go of something we hold most dear?
Continue reading “On Letting Go”
Today I watched a rainbow connect the earth and the sky.
Not like the ones I usually see, nice little parabolic shapes, connecting two points on land. No… this one was different. It just stood there, alone, without fear or care about its surroundings. Could almost see the tiny rain droplets roll down its quasi-impervious multi-coloured surface. Oh, it was quite a sight to behold.
Want to know what else is different? Me.
Continue reading “Concerning Rainbows”
You take a chance, throw your best shot at that giant leap and make the change.
What happens next? Do you feel better with your choice? Do you feel accomplished? Where is that insta-win state of mind you have been longing for so long? Worse of all – where is all the peace?
It is not there. There are no securities, no safety nets. When you swing from one trapeze to the other, you are on your own. Gravity and momentum. That is all.
“What if I fall?”, people ask me.
If you fall to the ground it will only mean you are alive and aware of the rules you set to yourself. The rules you respect in order to play the game, no matter wether you cheat or not – cheating is nothing more than validating and legitimizing the rules of play.
Stand up, shake the dust from your clothes, check your smile and move on. In the end, it’s never about the finish line, but about the way you snap your finger to start the next song in the queue.
Loved finding this title.
I only had “The Wheel Turns” on my mind, over and over again. Then, the Universe showed me the rest (with the help of Google).
So yes, another year has passed since this blog’s inception, this was the first year of new discoveries, the first year after saying YES to life, universe and the rest. The first year where I was open to the abundance of [insert better word for ALL].
So what happened last year? Continue reading “The Wheel Turns and the Path Unfolds”
Love’s True Kiss
To behold a glimpse
of love’s true kiss
Would make faces turn into awe
For we have, since,
Forgotten such bliss
Since alpha, since the days of yore
What is this – you say – and turn to fly away,
I cannot upon you bestow
The angels’ blessing, with my hand caressing
Your heavy frown
Release thyself then,
From all the past, cumbersome and frail
To enter a brave new world, a new trail,
For you are the who, and now is the when.
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